A Beautiful Life...

This canvas has been re-purposed and re-painted several times.  It has recently just been a work in progress for me and I think I'm finally happy with it...for now.

Beautiful Again...

A Year in the Life of an Art Journal prompt for February 28th:

THE PROMPT: I'm Beautiful

THE SONG: Real Love by Regina Spektor

Written Lyrics HERE

PRODUCT/TECHNIQUE: Self-portrait

I haven't touched my art journal in over a week. It was way over due. I had fun with this and was able to really write on this subject (gesso'd over it)...

Somebody asked me why I bother to journal and then cover the words. Well, I can keep my thoughts private that way, but I still get to express my feelings. I still struggle with writing down my thoughts due to a time when my privacy was totally violated and I felt like I had no place safe for my "voice". I don't always cover up my writing - it just depends.

This prompt really helped me to focus on how much I want to feel beautiful - physically, spiritually and emotionally. I don't want to be afraid to be who I am. I want to love people without wondering if they will love back. I want to laugh and feel free without worrying how I am perceived... I want to be BEAUTIFUL AGAIN.

Reverb 10|Day 8|Beautifully Different

December 8 – Beautifully Different.
Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.
(Author: Karen Walrond)Leave a Comment

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This was another difficult post for me. I think I saw the "what makes you different" and thought that it would be no problem...I AM different - LOL...but then I saw the "you" and the "beautiful" in the same question and I froze.



So...let's see. I have to do this. I need to do this.

Things that make me different...

• I am forgiving. Very forgiving. Almost to a fault. I don't like to hold grudges. I want peace with everyone.
• I am not happy if those around me are not happy. This is why I have to surround myself with positive people. We all have our days, but generally - I try to keep it positive.
• I love to laugh and I laugh hard and loud. Sometimes, a snort will even sneak out.
• On the other hand, I cry easily. Hardly ever for myself. Happy, sad, whatever - I am easily moved these days. I think it might be because for most of my life I tried to hold in my emotions if they were going to involve tears.
• I am loyal. I will be your friend forever. If you walk away from me - I will be here when you decide to return. I am not a door mat, but like I said - I don't hold grudges.
• I am passionate about my family, my children, my home. Attack any of these things and all of the above points are null and void. Just sayin'. =)

Well, I don't know if any of that makes me beautiful - but that's me right there. I turned 40 last month and I think I am finally getting to the point where I want to accept myself the way I am. Flaws and all. Always looking for improvement, wanting to stay teachable, but thankful that I am blessed beyond measure.