December 19 – Healing.
What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
(Author: Leonie Allan)
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One thing I know, is that before any kind of healing begins, there must first be a diagnosis. Before there can be a diagnosis, the symptoms must be identified and acknowledged.
This year, I've learned that there are a lot of different "symptoms" that I have need of acknowledging. The problem is...I don't know how. I think I've supressed so many pains and fears for so long that I have to learn to recognize what the "healthy" me should look like.
So, let me say that the healing is just in the very beginning stages. Yes, I do feel wounded and sick when it comes to certain things, but I know that I am resilient and I also know that I am greatly blessed. This has helped to get me this far - but I know that if I am to be all that I can for myself, my family, my ministry, my community...I have to be whole.
Psalm 42:11 – Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
Oh sweet girl. This post just completely resounds with me.
ReplyDeleteEverything you said.
There are days when I feel like a walking wound,with no healing in sight.
I even wonder if being whole is a possibility and if it is, what it even looks like.
I love you beautiful friend, you are a fellow sojourner and amazing heart. Love you much.