Outside my window...the world is going on with it's regular routine. I can hear cars and buses. The air is crisp with a bit of chill, yet the sun is shining with all it's might. It seems that the outside world is unaware of the hurt that is going on in the inside world.
I am thinking...about all that has happened this weekend. I know I will not forget the events that took place. I am thinking about families that are grieving over a life that ended too early. I am thinking about how hard it must be for them to have moments of silence when the tragedy seems to be constantly screaming in their heads.
I am thankful...for Heaven. Thankful for peace that passes understanding. Thankful for healing.
In the kitchen...I've got a menu planned and the groceries have been purchased, but because of all that's going on - I am not quite sure yet what is getting served when. I've got to figure out our schedule. Tonight will most likely be Tilapia and salad with rice.
I am wearing...my pajamas still. I don't even feel guilty about it 'cause for starters, I've had a rough weekend and secondly, I know that once I am up and dressed I will not be taking a break until my head can hit the pillow again late tonight.
I am creating...more items for my etsy shop as well as some things for a Thing 1 and Thing 2 themed twin baby shower! (still)
I am going...to have to really work on staying focused this week. I have a lot going on and I have a lot of people to whom I need to minister. I am praying for grace, wisdom and strength.
I am wondering...how I can best help those that are hurting. I think there's really nothing that I can actually "do", but I hope and pray that it will help.
I am reading...nothing but my Bible at the moment. Everything else has been put aside until I have a leisure moment to grab again.
I am hoping...that I can find the items that I need for one of my etsy orders. It seems that one of the items I often use has been discontinued. =/
I am looking forward to...a day and place where there is no heartache or pain.
I am learning...more and more that life is fragile. Each person in our life is a gift to us. We need to appreciate that gift while we have it.
Around the house...let's just say that it has not had much attention, but it has been lived in much. It's scary how much damage six people can do in just a few days. I know it wouldn't be so bad if we each took care of our own responsibilities - but that talk is for another post. *sigh*
I am pondering...on so many things, but I can not get out of my head the events of this weekend. A dear friend - a young man - went for a walk on Saturday evening and several hours had passed and he had not returned.
Due to the fact that he is a heart transplant recipient, the police were put on high alert even though he was 22 and gone for only 5 hours.
He received the heart transplant when he was a young boy and was fine until about two years ago when he had very serious complications and almost died. He recovered from that and seemed even better than ever.
Several people went looking for him in the neighborhood, my husband and I included. As we were about to conclude our search, I came around the corner and found him. =( My poor friend was laid out on the sidewalk, hidden by some construction tarps that prevented him from being seen from the street. He had been there for several hours.
My heart is breaking as I write this. I almost didn't, but I know that I have to. I will be writing and thinking and praying about this for a long time. I don't think I will be sharing it ever again - but I have to just say it.
I was scared, I was sad, I was angry... I was so many things. I am hurting for his family, his girlfriend, his friends - everything just hurts.
Yes, I asked WHY??? Yes, I screamed out to the Lord. But just as a person who hates to see their child hurt, I know that my Jesus has me in His mighty arms. I know that there will always be sin and hurt and death and sickness on this earth, but there is also good. There is also health and happiness, life and goodness.
It just feels like right now, it's all off balance. Jesus whispers in my ear that things will be better, that the pain will heal and that life will go on.
I know that Michael is in a better place and that he is not hurting and in that I can take comfort. I am praying for that PEACE that passes all understanding for all who was touched by his young, but full life.
A favorite quote for today...
"For some moments in life there are no words." ~David Seltzer, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Matthew 11:28~"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."
One of my favorite things...is knowing that each day is new. A fresh page with no mistakes in it...
A few plans for the rest of the week: Wow. I have so much going on. My oldest daughter Hannah has water polo games throughout the week and our family always goes to support her if we can, I have several (so thankful) Etsy orders to complete and ship, I have a baby shower for a dear friend who is expecting twins - this SATURDAY at my house!! and we also have family and friends that need to be ministered to as we deal with the death of our dear friend Michael. =(
A peek into my day...
|This is a picture of Michael with his girlfriend Mandy. Michael went to be with the Lord on Saturday, January 7, 2012. You may be gone Michael, but you will never be forgotten. You will always live in our hearts.|
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