After two months of feeling like I was running myself ragged, I woke up yesterday and decided that I would take it slow. No matter what. Those of you that know me best, know that this was not an easy decision for me. There is always so much that I could be doing.I know that it's not good to feel like I can't relax or shouldn't take some down time. I sometimes joke that it's a "sickness"... but now I'm thinking that it really is.
I was brought up with the idea that if you were ever sitting around or sleeping in or whatever - you were lazy. In college, many of my roommates would insist on their nap time. It was detrimental that they have this time of re-charging. I didn't think it was a bad idea and even envied them a little because, to be honest, I didn't even feel like I knew how to take a nap. I'd lay there with my mind all a buzz thinking about what I had accomplished or needed to accomplish. Then the feelings of guilt would start to set in. Feelings that I would appear lazy, irresponsible or weak for laying there IN BROAD DAY LIGHT. haha. Sounds ridiculous now.
What on earth? I have carried this feeling into my adult life. Even after having a cesarean section with my first born and losing enough blood to need a transfusion, I felt I better get up after the anesthesia wore off to take a shower and make my self presentable in case someone should stop by for a visit.
"Then Jesus said, "Let's go off by ourselves to a quiet place and rest awhile." He said this because there were so many people coming and going that Jesus and his apostles didn't even have time to eat."
Do you know why I laughed? Have you ever been so busy that you forget to eat? I have! Sure, I make up for it later (not always in the best way), but that's how busy I get and that's how busy they were. They didn't even have a chance to eat.